Just 3 months shy of 4 years sober. Mother’s Day is bitter sweet for me. I have one heart down, and one to go. For some it is days, weeks, months, or years. Apparently years for this one (tears)! Oh how I miss you sweet daughter!
The message etched on my heart for my first born Brie Faith. If I could only heal all the pain I caused, and recover all your youth stolen. To say I am sorry, and ask for your fogiveness. I wish to start anew. I don’t know you anymore. For the Brie I so adored, what are all your favorites? It would be like making friends with a near stranger. I long, and pray for the day we will be brought to healing. Awkward family reunion. I just pray it is not after your wedding day, as I see through social media you have a boyfriend. All I do know of you is based around your Twitter. Sad reality I have here, as I have not seen you in some odd years. Likely you are bitter, and every right so.
I miss your beautiful face, your goofy ways, and love for Tim Burton films. I can’t write much more today, as I am brought to my knees in tears for we lack so many a year. I love you sweet Brie Cheese…
My mind is a jungle as I sift through photos of you, and what was. We have not lost, not yet! For I will never forget. The truth which you have yet to know is for today I am sober!!
So for now I hold on to my little Minnie Mouse, Luke Skywalker, Fair Princess, and your shining 20 year old self!! Love the dermal piercing, you are simply gorgeous! May God get all the glory for our story is still being written. I was smitten the day you were concieved!